FiggiePudding's Xanga

What happened to you, World??

Fri, 03 Jul 2009 03:39:53 GMT

Yes, that entry title sounds very dramatic and almost gives a certain "I'm about to be very contemplative and say something deep" air to it, but actually, I'm just wondering what's happened to THIS world. This very small, very tiny but homey Xanga world. What happened? Does anyone even blog on here anymore???

*voice echoes in the silence*

*a quiet scratching noise breaks through the stillness as words are spelled out on the screen*

"I-f... y-o-u... c-an.. se-e... t-h-is... l-e-av-..e.... a.. c-o..-m-m e-n..t"

*the writer's hand falls just as the last letter is scratched out and the world once again turns to darkness*

(Seriously guys, I just wanna know how many of ya'll are left. :P)

Leaving Xanga?? Well...

Wed, 04 Feb 2009 13:35:03 GMT

...sort of. But not entirely!

I've been keeping my photoblog updated more regularly than this, although it's still not kept up to date ALL the time.

If you're interested in checking it out though, my photoblog can be found here!

AND I have a new "Fig Project" blog here. (My old one was www.xanga.com/thefigproject, if you recall.)

So yeah. That's all! :)

A Favor to Ask

Mon, 22 Sep 2008 14:37:53 GMT

Hey, I wonder if you ("you" meaning anyone out there who happens to be reading this) could help me out with something... I'm planning to update this blog pretty regularly, but a lot of my entries will be set to private, as they're somewhat of a more personal nature and will most likely carry with them a lot of emotional venting that I don't want any of you to have to sit through. Sooo... I'll mark the private entries with "Private" (dun dun-nuh... brilliance), but if you can see any of those at any time, could you just give me a heads up in the comments? Thanks so much. :) I think it's a pretty awesome thing that I can actually rest assured that you WILL be honest about that and not just pretend like it's hidden when you're reading all of my private entries... I have pretty awesome people to associate with, I think. :) (That should very much be taken as a compliment, by the way.)

Today I'm just having a hard time with some things. Pray for me if you think of me, please.

One Day at a Time

Sat, 20 Sep 2008 18:56:29 GMT

Thanks so much for the feedback from my last entry, you guys... :) I found it all very helpful and encouraging--don't ever feel like you shouldn't tell me something because I already know! (Narelle... ;))

I don't have much to put in this update right now. In fact, I'm mainly updating because I have nothing better to do. :P For those of you who didn't know, my mom, four siblings and I were all in a car accident last Friday morning (a week and a day ago), so ever since then, Mom and I have been taking it easy and doing lots of sitting and sleeping. I was just saying to Mom how I can't imagine anyone being able to stand not being busy with SOMETHING for longer than a couple of days... it sure was nice to take it easy the first few days (although physical pain or discomfort is never "nice" :P), but after a while... it just gets tiring and boring! So here I am, trying to keep busy with something and you all get to partake. (Don't you all feel special.)

As far as an update on how I'm doing emotionally, well... I guess, at this stage of things, it's hard to keep in perspective what the problems were to begin with. It's confusing though, because everything changes so drastically and so quickly... one minute, things seem so obvious and clear that breaking up was the right thing at least for this point in both of our lives. Even sometimes it's "obvious" that the differences between us would always make us unhappy in the future. But then just as often, if not more so, it's easy to forget about all of those and they almost seem like petty complaints... all of a sudden, the "problems" look like nothing more than a slight tiff you just have to get over and deal with--and those happen with ANY relationship. So... yeah. It's hard to keep things in perspective. So I'm just taking things one day at a time.

Return to Blogging

Tue, 16 Sep 2008 20:30:36 GMT

I think... I may start blogging again. Not because I have nothing better to do... because believe me, there's a lot I will be doing that will definitely keep me from updating as regularly as I used to. :P But I think I want to try this out again. Put my thoughts into words and have a record of some of the things I'm dealing with.

There's so much to cover from the last year... so many wonderful things, and a lot of really emotionally painful things too. I'm not even going to try to get it all in here, so don't expect a full-on detailed description of what my last year has been. The main thing is what's happening right now.

Basically, on the one hand, I feel very much as though my life is over. My relationship with Daniel was ended a few weeks ago, and while I've been hoping and praying things could work out and we could move on as we were, I'm at a place right now where it feels hopeless. I'm trying to realize–as hard as it is right now–that we're actually in a pretty good spot. There are some things... some pretty big things... that need to be either changed or worked out between both of us if we were to get back together and really be happy. So right now, I feel like this should be a time where we refocus our priorities on God and what He has for us in the other practical areas of life (Daniel just started full-time school and is working two jobs, and I'm working pretty hard to get my photography business off the ground), and let Him work on who we are as individuals. I want to use this time to develop my character and make sure I'm really striving to be the best that I CAN be. I want to take advantage of my time still at home to enjoy my family while I still can. Whether or not I ever get married or if that's in the next few years or never at all, I'm gonna guess that most (and probably all) of my siblings will, so either way, we're not going to be at home forever. ;)

I also really feel that there's only one good way things can go from here... either God will put us back together in His time and in His way, and we'll both be incredibly grateful for that, or He has a different plan for both of us and, as hard as it is to really believe this right now, we'll both eventually be grateful for how this ended now.

But yeah... as big and brave as I sound, that's really not how I feel SO much of the time. Most of the time. Daniel's really become my best friend in the past year. He's the first person I think of to tell some new and exciting news or to go to with a problem or to remember a joke or funny story to tell him later... There are so many things, especially here in Windsor, that remind me of him and of amazing times we've had together. Even memories of things we've talked about in the past come flooding back at the most random times or memories are triggered by completely random things... it is really, really hard. I'm not gonna lie. I said this just after we broke up and I'll say it again... I didn't know it was possible to hurt this much.

If you're reading this, please keep us both in your prayers. Pray that God would make us both better for this. I know I've been made better in some ways from our relationship, and I don't want those improvements to be torn down by self-pity or desperation. I'm not interested in "rebounding" or settling for something because I just want to get married while I'm still young... psh! I'd rather hold out for something amazing. :)

...

(But pray that I don't forget that. ;))

A website? ... A website!

Mon, 14 Apr 2008 19:50:40 GMT

It's finally online!

www.figgiephotography.com

The contact and pricing links have yet to be finished, and for some reason you can't reach the blog FROM one of those pages (you can from the homepage or the galleries, though), but the galleries are all up in slideshow mode anyway.

Any feedback you guys have to offer, I'd be more than happy to hear it! I've heard some people say the slideshows took a long time to load, whereas other people it didn't, so I want to hear from everyone on any thoughts you might have!

And also, there's some engagement collages I just updated my photoblog with. (And no, not my engagement... I'll be updating a lot more than my BLOG when that happens! )

Vote!

Wed, 26 Mar 2008 16:10:59 GMT

Howdy ya'll!

I'm pretty excited... My photography website is almost up!! There's just some final tweaking and gallery uploading to be done and some of the more boring links to finish filling out. (The links with contact info, bios, pricing, and all that.) I'll let you know once it's up.

In the meanwhile, I've been readying my old photoblog to be linked from it so I have a way to update photos on my site myself without having to mess around with the website itself... and now I'm need of your help! I want to use a standard border around the photos so that if anyone saves them to their computer, they'll remember where they came from. I've got a few different samples on my other blog, so if you wouldn't mind popping over there and letting me know which, in your opinion, should be the winner, I would GREATLY appreciate it!

Thanks!

The New Xanga

Thu, 13 Mar 2008 17:33:09 GMT

I haven't signed in here in pretty much forever (pay no attention to the previous entries submitted within the last few months ), and I've just seen for the first time, the new Xanga... stuff. You know. The page you see when you sign in and they show you gazillions of things that you didn't particularly care to see. (Or, even if I DO care to see it, now it's all just mishmashed together.)

So I'm sure there are good reasons for the "new and approved"-ments, but at first glance, I'm not totally sure--any feedback from you regular bloggers who've used these new features more than myself?

Thursday, January 03, 2008

Thu, 03 Jan 2008 20:49:27 GMT

Hola!

How is everyone?

Friday, August 24, 2007

Fri, 24 Aug 2007 13:45:25 GMT

This post is going to be very short, not because I have nothing to say, but because I have altogether too MUCH to say and no time to say it all!

I just wanted to post SOMETHING, first of all, to thank you all SO much for all of your congratulatory comments and emails , and second, to test out this new layout. Yeah, cuz I'm a dork like that.